Handle what I'm given w/ a giant box of chocolates

I recently found the above quote and it's something that Bryan and I feel is true.  It's often heard, especially in LDS culture, that "God won't give you more than you can handle", well this past 9 months has proved that wrong for us.  A brain tumor, 6 surgeries, chemotherapy, middle-of-the-night-wakings for tingly toes and body aches (or for who knows what?! because sometimes she can't really express it), hair loss, nausea, 3 weeks of a fever, double ear infection, ringing in her ears leading to possible hearing loss, a new baby, midnight feedings, thrush, RSV, 4 top teeth coming in all at once - and lots of heartache for it all - that's definitely more than I can handle.  And Heavenly Father knows that.  And He's sent help for us in so many ways.  But oh how I long for a good week of sleep again.  Oftentimes I feel just plain tired.  And it's sad when waking up every hour for 6-7 hours a night feels more restful than 5 straight hours, a 10 minute feeding, and then 2 more hours (I guess my body is just more used to waking up every hour?!).  Unfortunately I think that tiredness is gonna last until we're done with chemo....or maybe in 5 years when she'll be "cancer free"? Who knows.  But no thanks to that cat that apparently chose to DIE outside our window last night - really appreciated that howling for like a half hour at 3am (especially since Dallin had already woken up once with a coughing attack - thank you RSV - and would wake up again at like 5 to eat and have more coughing attacks and consequently throw up all over himself/me/floor twice which turned into an hour long ordeal).  Sadly, there was no carcass on our doorstep this morning.  Darn cat.

I swear my life isn't all depressing though.  We did manage to sneak out of the house for a nice Valentine's dinner sans kids at Wild Ginger for some all-you-can-eat sushi (not as good as Pagoda in SLC, but still pretty good).  And Bryan bought me a GIANT box of chocolates

Look at that thing!  It's 2 1/2 lbs! I'm trying to limit myself to one piece a day....so far it's not working :) But this is partly the way I "handle what I'm given" ;)

We also went to Target last night and they were doing their 50% off sale for the dollar section - this is like my favorite thing ever.  As if $1 wasn't already a good deal, they tempt me even more by making a bunch of stuff only $0.50!  Love it.

Hopefully next time I manage to blog Dallin's RSV will be completely gone....and maybe that cat will be too.